No, this is not what you think. I’m not thinking too highly of myself. Just the opposite. I had a very “honest” time with God yesterday. I rose early to spend time with Him in preparation for worship. I didn’t expect the conversation we had, but then again, I’m not really in control of it. I asked that He reveal those things in me that keep us apart. To break me. A hard prayer, but a necessary one if you want to know God more. If you want revival.
He set me up for this one by taking me through Hosea recently. By teaching me about idols. Real idols. Idols of today. My idols. Then He really hit me:
I am my worst idol.
Me, myself, and I. God started by bringing to my attention the “high places” where my idolatry is expressed. T.V. Food. (those were the easy ones) Working out. (O.K., now we’re getting personal) My service to Him. (really) Friendships. (can it be? hold on, I’ll explain) FaceBook. This blog.
Then, the Lord of Lords brought it home. What’s the one common denominator in all these places? ME. I am so self-centered and selfish. My motivation for most things in my life has something to do with my benefit. Yeah, this is all tied up with pride as well.
I watch T.V. when I could do something better because “I” need to unwind. I eat things that aren’t good for me because “I’ve” had a rough day. I workout so that “I” will feel better when “I” look in the mirror. If I’m honest, “I” like a pat on the back when I’ve done something good for the Kingdom and I like the way it makes “me” feel to do something for someone else. To continue being honest, I have to confess to being a selfish friend. Not praying for my friends enough. Being jealous when “I” don’t get enough attention from them. “I” FaceBook to be noticed. And I check my stats regularly to see how many of you read what “I” have to say because days with high numbers make “me” feel good.
I could say that I have many idols, but I really only have one: me. What do I do with that? Submit it to Him.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation (or creature). The old has passed away; behold the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV)
And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit. (2 Corinthians 3:18)
Now, my face is unveiled. Transform me Lord. I am yours. I will not be my idol anymore. You are my Lord of lords – Yahweh, my God.