Monthly Archives: September 2009

personal, intimate

Our relationship with God.  At least, that’s how He wants it to be.  Personal.  Intimate.  I am amazed at how personally He leads and teaches us.  Look at this scripture my wife pointed out to me yesterday:

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.  Psalm 32:8

How does God lead and teach us?  With His eye upon us.  His instructions weren’t just written down once for us to go and figure out how they apply to our lives on our own.  His Spirit makes them personal – “living and breathing” – to us.  He leads me.  He teaches me.  Thank You, God.

Brian


I cry every time

Now that I’ve seen this, I tear up when it starts.

Now, dry it up guys.

Brian


just keeps coming//praise the Lord

I don’t know about you, but when God is speaking to me about something He keeps it before me continually.  Last night at our marriage conference the subject was less about marriage and more about us as individuals.  It was like God told the leaders that He was dealing with me on a certain subject and instructed them to speak to me.  In fact, I thought the dude was looking at me several times.  If you haven’t read the post below, read it first.  Then do what they told us to do: take 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 and insert your name everywhere it says “love” or “it.”  Here it is:

Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.   Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.   It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.   Love never fails.

Does that describe you?  Does it describe me?  I have to admit, I felt really awkward reading it that way.  To be that way, I will have to be what my last post says.  I will have to give up myself and be filled with the Spirit of God.  I can’t be first, God has to have that position.  All else must fade away.

God, help me to be what you made me to be.  Thanks for being so patient and not giving up.  Amen.

Brian


I am an idol

No, this is not what you think.  I’m not thinking too highly of myself.  Just the opposite.  I had a very “honest” time with God yesterday.  I rose early to spend time with Him in preparation for worship.  I didn’t expect the conversation we had, but then again, I’m not really in control of it.  I asked that He reveal those things in me that keep us apart.  To break me.  A hard prayer, but a necessary one if you want to know God more.  If you want revival.

He set me up for this one by taking me through Hosea recently.  By teaching me about idols. Real idols.  Idols of today.  My idols.  Then He really hit me:

I am my worst idol.

Me, myself, and I.  God started by bringing to my attention the “high places” where my idolatry is expressed.  T.V.  Food.  (those were the easy ones)  Working out.  (O.K., now we’re getting personal)  My service to Him. (really)  Friendships.  (can it be? hold on, I’ll explain)  FaceBook.  This blog.

Then, the Lord of Lords brought it home.  What’s the one common denominator in all these places?  ME.  I am so self-centered and selfish.  My motivation for most things in my life has something to do with my benefit.  Yeah, this is all tied up with pride as well.

I watch T.V. when I could do something better because “I” need to unwind.  I eat things that aren’t good for me because “I’ve” had a rough day.  I workout so that “I” will feel better when “I” look in the mirror.  If I’m honest, “I” like a pat on the back when I’ve done something good for the Kingdom and I like the way it makes “me” feel to do something for someone else.  To continue being honest, I have to confess to being a selfish friend.  Not praying for my friends enough.  Being jealous when “I” don’t get enough attention from them.  “I” FaceBook to be noticed.  And I check my stats regularly to see how many of you read what “I” have to say because days with high numbers make “me” feel good.

I could say that I have many idols, but I really only have one: me.  What do I do with that?  Submit it to Him.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation (or creature).  The old has passed away; behold the new has come.  (2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV)

And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another.  For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.  (2 Corinthians 3:18)

Now, my face is unveiled.  Transform me Lord.  I am yours.  I will not be my idol anymore.  You are my Lord of lords – Yahweh, my God.

Brian


9.27.09 @ MeadowBrook

Hallelujah, Anyhow (choir)

My Savior Lives

Everyday

Praise the Father, Praise the Son

Through the Fire (choir)

It’s gonna be a great day.

Brian


Jesus, I Love You Anyway

Ladies and Gentlemen, an original composition by Kate Crisman.  The lyrics are as simple as the title, “Jesus, I love You anyway.”  Enjoy.

So proud.

Brian


we won’t be quiet

I am so proud of the believers at John S. Jones Elementary School.  They showed up in force for See You at the Pole.

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We sang “We Won’t Be Quiet”, had a devotion, then a student and a parent led us in prayer.  It was awesome!  I am so proud of you all!

Brian